Me and My Holiday Blues!

Yes you read the Title right! Me and having Holiday Blues??? Wait, let me explain.

Sunday!! Finally much awaited holiday for the week arrived. Today we have Onam celebrations in our community, albeit late. My daughter is going to give a dance performance, the entire morning was planned, the procession, the cultural programme followed by delicious onam sadya and probably a nice siesta!! Sounds Perfect! Isn't it? 

I remember the days being a junior resident,  someone asked, what plans for the holiday? My constant answer, I am on duty. Public holidays, festivals went by spending all the time in the hospital and if lucky some generous nurse would feed some home cooked food and sweets!!! That would be the most delicious things on a busy holiday duty. 

As years passed, when you have finally made to the other side of hierarchy, you control the duty roster, the number of holiday duties receed just passed on to someone else.

As years further passed, duties are thing of past. You have junior doctors on duty who reports about patient's condition and constantly call you/WhatsApp you. Then, you feel you are on duty 24*7??

Coming back to today, I woke up, only to think where  do I fit it in my rounds?? Last night admissions need attention and people waiting for discharges. Let me finish very early in the morning, I need morning blood work up also to be ready. What if I miss getting ready my daughter on time, I don't want to miss her performance too. Hundred thoughts which clutter my mind. Let me see, what I can do?? 

That I call are "Holiday Blues"

Through a series of phone calls, you finally are ready for the event. "Ma'am when are you coming today?" Hmmm I will call in sometime.

As the celebrations started, it was fun to watch and kind of be lost in the festivities, but only to be constantly disturbed by WhatsApp reports/calls decisions to be taken.

I finally get through the celebrations and make it to much awaited delicious lunch!! 

Did I dream of a siesta?? I leave my loved ones to nap and slip out of the house to see my patients.

My patient's, staff's expression " Der lagi aane me tumko, shukar hai phir be aaye to" 

I slowly, smile to myself thinking of this beautiful ghazal, most times the family members are also feeling the same way when you are at work.

When there is an upcoming holiday and I am not traveling I develop severe Holiday Blues. 

Holiday in a Doctor's life is indeed stressful!