Gratitude Journal Day 2

I love lying down on the cool ground, feeling the wet earth or a chilled rock streching my body and gazing at the stars and sky. The very expanse of the sky delights me!

There is some delight in all of us, isnt it? 

All of us invariably have tough times, some worse than other, some we control and some we have no control on..In medical Jargon modifiable and non modifiable factors. 

There was a point in my life, I had to take decisions which involved my well being at the cost of shattering myself..but it had to be taken. Shattered, confused, but firm about my decision I walked into new life. Good or bad whatever gets over, leaves you with emptiness, I read about it this morning and couldn't agree more, the void, emptiness away from flight or fight response felt terrible. 

After days of thinking, over thinking, looking for answers, guilt, worrying about future..I was exhausted...

 

I took out my yoga mat, gently streched my body. Tried to focus on one breath at a time, I remember my Guru also one of my best friends teaching me "Aarathi inhale and exhale like you are transferring oil from one container to another, so smooth" I stayed with the breath practice and forced myself to do other asanas. An hour of yoga and I could feel my body feel lighter!!!

Next 1 month, Mentally still shattered, I just took the mat every morning to terrace, lying down stared at the expansive sky! Stretching myself, my back streched a little more each day...Didnt misss a single sunrise and sunset! The Yoga mat, Sky, Sun were my therapy!!!  

Little story behind Yoga mat too! My best half R gifted me that, after much research he got me a mat which was thick, anti slip and dont know what..in one word it was comfort for me! When I emptied the house, after his death, I got myself the mat.. which I continue to use. one of those things I still can't let go..

Well, even when life felt totally unfair, unjust, and tragic. I could hold on to something and i am grateful. We can only work on modifiable factors..isnt it?

 

I am filled with gratitude, that I had someone who loved me so deeply! 

I am filled with gratitude, that Yoga taught me invaluable lessons, it helped me go inwards, going with the flow, Letting go... Surrender most importantly!

I am filled with gratitude, to experience the divine beauty! The expansive sky, Sunrise! Sunset!

PS: This is not the mat R gave!